explaining unveiled faces January 29, 2007
I turned a quarter of a century just a week ago. It was a big deal- kind of. I dreamt of getting married at 21- it happened. I dreamt of having a baby at 25- it’s happening. 30- I can only imagine. But in the weeks I was preparing to turn 25, I think I drove Corey crazy with all the hype of how big this birthday really was for me. I was talking to my staff at work after the “day” was over and gone, laughing about how I dropped everything on my birthday to just enjoy the day- I felt so selfish and so silly to make such a big deal about it! I felt the need to be pampered, loved on, and oh did I get some lovin…from friends to family, my church, my kids at work. Maybe it’s a combination of pregnancy and 25 but something inside me was crying out for attention. I woke up last night thinking about someone I know who is in their teenage years, figuring out who they are and their place in this world, and I realized that was me for a day! I have so much to learn about life, parenting, and sacrifice- I think this birthday was a good reminder of the steps I need to take away from myself, and into the arms of the perfect Parent, the perfect Father…who is waiting to love on me if I just turn my eyes and heart to Him. So I prayed for that teenage girl, and I prayed for that teenage girl inside me…to grow up.
I have to explain “unveiled faces” too. A couple years ago I wrote a song (with the help of a friend whose last name is, ironically, Song) which came as an inspiration from 2 Corinthians 3:18, “and we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with every increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” The song has held so much meaning for me in so many ways. It was a step of faith to write and share with people, it was a reminder to me of how much I have grown and changed in the past few years (through college and through serving in church/pastoral ministry), and I have seen so many ”unveiled faces”- each day I look into the beautiful eyes of the children who I serve through Quest Church; the host of people whose stories have been shared with me over coffee; and through the gracious hosts, generous givers, and inspirational people who I have worked alongside for the past four years. If you really want to hear the song, a rough version of it is up on my friend’s site- www.georgesong.com.
Now that I am weeks away from turning into a magic pumpkin, I mean, a “stay-at-home-mom”, my mind has filled with all these crazy ideas- which I may or may not have time to pursue. And this blog maybe a sounding board for some of these crazy ideas. One of which is more song writing, another is writing children’s stories, and another is journaling the epic saga of parenting- an adventure I’m excited to begin (I’ve pretty much packed my bags like a little kid waiting to go to Disneyland). Stay tuned…
