the end of the decade
It’s my last day in my 20′s, so of course some decade reflection is normal right? I just wish I had more time…So much has happened in the last 10 years. Graduating college, getting married, first job out of college (which amazingly enough I still have), first home, husband’s first self-employed company, husband’s second self-employed company, first baby, second baby, third baby…looking back I feel like we’ve keyed in on the things that are important to our family, but are also no where near where I thought we’d be at this time, and yet I am still hopeful for where we are going.
I’ve been searching for a milestone to mark this moment in time. Something small and trivial, like a piercing or tattoo, or extreme haircut, you know, that sort of thing. I want something that is palpable and concrete to represent this crossroads, this turn in my path. Too dramatic? Whatever.
But I was reading this passage that deeply moved me this morning, that I feel might be my life verse for this next stage of living. It’s from Job 28, the whole chapter is great, but here’s the highlight for me:
20 Where then does wisdom come from?
Where does understanding dwell?
21 It is hidden from the eyes of every living thing,
concealed even from the birds in the sky.
22 Destruction[b] and Death say,
“Only a rumor of it has reached our ears.”
23 God understands the way to it
and he alone knows where it dwells,
24 for he views the ends of the earth
and sees everything under the heavens.
25 When he established the force of the wind
and measured out the waters,
26 when he made a decree for the rain
and a path for the thunderstorm,
27 then he looked at wisdom and appraised it;
he confirmed it and tested it.
28 And he said to the human race,
“The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom,
and to shun evil is understanding.”
Goose bumps. The Holy Spirit kind. This passage makes me wish I was adventurous. It makes me imagine packing up the family and heading into the jungle, on a search for a mysterious place, a Holy of Holies, if you will. I imagine a place with a waterfall, that when we drink, we taste the Goodness of God. I imagine a place that sounds just as beautiful as it looks. I imagine a place where God’s presence is thick. And I want to be there. And I want to take people with me. Lots of people. But there is a command. To fear the Lord and to shun evil. That to me is the rough terrain of the journey. To look to Him with reverence and awe, to obey His call on my life, and to turn away from evil- the temptations of submitting to fear (the other kind!) complacency, covetousness, selfishness, all things that are very really in my life. Probably not going to be easy, but will definitely be worth it.
Still searching for a milestone to mark my 20′s, but I think I know what’s going to mark my 30′s.
